Sunday 29 March 2015

Remembering LKY

Decided to write a blog post dedicated to the father of Singapore citizens, Mr Lee Kuan Yew.


When the news of LKY's worsening condition got out, a wave of emotions hit me. I've never expected myself to be this affected by a news like that. Like the Facebook status I posted on 18th March (days before his passing), I've always been apathetic towards politics and politicians. I never thought it would hit me so hard that LKY is in a critical condition. When I heard the news, I knew I could not wish for him to "get well soon" or "get better". I knew inside that the best I can do is to pray for a final painless journey.

Also during these period, all the way until LKY's departure, articles about him swarmed the whole of social media. News reports, Facebook statuses, blog posts - all with a mix of sentiments. Initially, I get pretty upset when people 'spoke ill' of LKY. There were several arguments:

In this article by Jeraldine Phneah, it was argued that LKY is given too much credit for Singapore's success.

1. Because there were other noble people like Goh Keng Swee, Ong Pang Boon, S Rajaratnam etc who were less featured in our social studies textbook but are equally important.

2. Because he didn't exactly "sacrifice a lot" given the fact that "even if he has to sacrifice privacy and time. Isn't it something all politicians and celebrities choose to sacrifice in return for power and status".

3. It also brought up a point that I've seen a few people finding fault with, which is when we call LKY the "Founding Father of Singapore".

4. Because Singapore already had a good infrastructure and did not start off as a "fishing village" when LKY took over.


Her original post (which was the one I read) was a little more insensitive than it is now. As a result of her blog post, many people lashed out at her, calling her an 'ingrat' and started all those personal attacks.

And then this article by LIFT, he spoke up for Jeraldine Phneah as a result of the backlashing and mentioned 'how intolerant' Singaporeans were towards someone who merely did her research and presented facts from another perspective.

Also, in this article by the notorious sex blogger/ex-NUS-law-scholar Alvin Tan, he basically criticised the hack out of LKY and the people who blindly respect him because our "small minds are all brainwashed".

Here's just my two-cents-worth:

1. Let's not dispute over the term "Founding Father". 
I really think the usage of this term depends on an individual's perspective. Whilst it is true that Lee Kuan Yew did not DISCOVER Singapore like Christopher Columbus did with America, I don't think there is anything wrong for calling him the Founding Father of (modern) Singapore. He did transform this island from a 3rd world country to a 1st world metropolis. He played a big part in shaping Singapore to what it is today. So get over it if people use this term for LKY because he rightly deserves it.

2. I really have to disagree with the part that he didn't sacrifice a lot, based on the fact that politicans and celebrities all give up time and privacy for status and power. NO. I'm sorry if you disagree with me but this argument is flawed. Completely flawed. As I quote from Lee Hsien Yang's eurology:

"Perhaps in different circumstances, he would have been a very successful businessman or entrepreneur; but he chose to dedicate his life to serve the people of Singapore and to build a better future for all. "

He didn't have set up PAP. He didn't have to become a politician. He didn't have to craft and implement unpopular and difficult policies. Given his brains and ability, he could've made it big. Made a fortune for himself. Maybe leave Singapore to another place which was flourishing at that time. There's so many things he could have done. But he made a choice, a choice to dedicate his life to Singapore. No matter how successful or feasible his policies are, the starting point of all his ideas and policies, is a better Singapore. To give us a roof over our heads, to equip us with knowledge, to equip us with the ability to converse, to give us a self-sufficient nation in view of resource scarcity. Can you say that all that he's given up is only for status and power? I beg to differ.

Even in his twilight years, he did not stop thinking about how to make Singapore a better place. When the nation is deep asleep in the middle of the night, he's up working from his home, with his 'red box'. This is what he has given us. Not for himself, for his selfish need for status, power and wealth, but for us - Singaporeans.


3. Whilst I disagree with a fair share of Phneah's article, I completely agreed with LIFT that there was no need for personal attacks.

Should we disagree with whatever was written, we can always express our views and arguments and beef them up with hard facts. There's really no need to act like cyber bullies and call people an ingrat. After all, she did her research and cited many facts that we Singaporeans do not know. For one, she made a point about the less prominent figures which also contributed to Singapore.

It may be true that ourselves as Singaporeans are not well-versed in Singapore's history. As a result, instead of supporting our points of view with facts, we just lash out, feeling offended by anyone who undermine LKY's contribution.

I myself am not well-read with regards to Singapore history. I've only learnt a lot of it over the past week. I was born in an era where LKY was no longer the Prime Minister but the Senior Minister. And before I was "socially conscious", the reins were passed to the current PM, Lee Hsien Long. Therefore I cannot put up a good argument about LKY's contributions. How can you let fishes to appreciate water when they've never been on the land? I think that's part of the reason why people do not think that LKY deserve as much credit as people are giving him.

So, I guess there are some rooms of improvement with regards to being more tolerant of a different viewpoint.

4. We, the citizens of Singapore, are not blind minions of LKY.
As much as we praise and credit LKY, people tend to associate that with us being blind minions who are so completely brainwashed by our so-called "biased" Social Studies textbooks. Here's just an important clarification: we are only giving credit when credit is due. We are not blind followers without a critical mind of our own. We do not agree with everything he does. We know about his iron first, his oppressive leadership as people call it, some controversial events that have occurred during the years leading to our independence. Some feel that our 'success' is measured on selective dimensions, and also at the cost of our freedom.

Some people may disagree with his method. I think we can agree to disagree. I just want to say that everything has a trade-off. Had he not been the way he is, maybe Singapore wouldn't been the same today. It could have been better, it could have been worse. We don't know and we never will. Maybe we don't live in a true liberal society, but we live in a country where insensitive racial & religious remarks are strictly condemned. Maybe we don't have 100% "freedom of speech", but we have the freedom of walking on the streets 2am in the middle of the night without the fear of getting raped or robbed.

Everyone is entitled to their views. We can disagree with certain things he do, but I think that's independent of the the things he deserves credit for.





So, like I said, after looking at the critics, I initially felt upset but I couldn't really rebutt the points with my limited knowledge. And then I came across a Facebook status by an ex-teacher of mine which I thought was worth sharing:

Some thoughts about the "criticisms" levelled so far
1) "Singapore was already prospering as a port, so not much more to do" - if the port was so wonderful in providing jobs, why was there such a high unemployment rate? Why was there such a need to develop Jurong?

Also, geographical position doesn't guarantee anything. Ask a transport person and they will tell you in terms of distance and airline routes, Bangkok is actually the best place to be an aerospace hub. Yet we are the one. Why?JB developed its own port years ago and offered cheaper services. Building a canal across the Isthmus of Kra has been eyed for centuries and when it happens, our port can easily be rendered useless. Sea routes across the North Pole are being explored.
Our location and port guarantee much ah?

2) "The British left behind a strong civil service" - Ceylon and Burma were widely regarded as the British colonies that were most likely to succeed and prosper upon independence due to their resources and pool of educated elites. Much more educated elites than us to run a civil service and government well. Yet they lagged behind eventually due to poor governance. So even if this is true, as you can see, it doesn't guarantee anything without good governance.

3) "It was Albert Winsemius's idea." - Indeed. But execution to mobilise so much resources to attract MNCs and stuff is easy ah? Both Albert Winsemius and our founding fathers have to be credited.

4) "We didn't start out as a backwater fishing village" - No doubt. But our "cities" were squalid and overcrowded, and much of our people lived in kampungs. It is an easy feat to give them all clean water supply and sanitation facilities as well as a roof over the head?
Give credit when it is due. Yes, there were disastrous policies like Graduate Mothers Scheme that needs to be criticised, yes some Singaporeans may not like him, but that doesn't mean one needs to discredit and play down real contributions.
We did not begin as a nation. A nation is a nation because of something common that ties them together. We had nothing to tie us all together. It was created. It was imagined. It was socially constructed. And yet it happened so that we can get to where we are today

(Credits to Mr Luo Yanjie)



 Of course, again, you can choose to disagree with whatever. I've already come to terms that 'haters gonna hate' and there will be critics regardless of what people think.

If you realise, I kept saying that I was 'initially' upset when I read those articles. But over the days, I began to feel rather indifferent towards such critics and different viewpoints. Why??

1. Majority of articles and sentiments are towards being grateful for LKY's contribution.

Why be so upset with a handful of people who think otherwise? Most of what I've seen the past days were substantially out-pouring of gratitude. Just scroll down your Facebook page, Instagram feeds, the crowd at Padang and Parliament House. Most of us understand how much LKY loves the nation, how much he has done. I think that suffice.


2. More importantly, why does it even matter that people disagree? I came across this quote of LKY (which I also used it as a caption for one of my Instag's post as a tribute to LKY):

“I have never been overconcerned or obsessed with opinion polls or popularity polls. I think a leader who is, is a weak leader. If you are concerned with whether your rating will go up or down, then you are not a leader. You are just catching the wind … you will go where the wind is blowing. And that’s not what I am in this for.”

Because of his words, I realised that a constant struggle facing all leaders is to make unpopular decisions. There are decisions that politicians make that's going make people not like you. You will be unpopular. The policy will be criticised. That's what he's done. He has made unpopular choices. Even if he's made popular decisions, he wouldn't make every single damn soul in this country happy. That's just impossible, no one can make everyone happy. He's not in for a popularity contest, he's not here to make us like him. He's here to make Singapore a progressive nation. That's who he is.

If he himself is not going to be overly concerned about opinion polls and popularity polls, why should we be?

So if you're like me, who feels the grievance everything someone has another view on Mr LKY, just let it go. Because that's what he lives for.






So, that's about it for my two-cents-worth.






Over the past few days, I saw a different side of Singapore. The grateful and gracious side. I feel moved by all the volunteers, soldiers and businesses who've contributed to this grieving period. :)

I'm glad that I braved through 1.5 hours of heavy rain and say my final thanks and goodbye to this visionary leader. It's really uncanny how the rain literally lasted the whole of his journey to UCC and stopped. Everyone was drenched. I brought an umbrella, thinking I was prepared for any weather, but I was wrong. My hair was wet, my clothes were wet, my bag was wet, my insides were wet, my feet and thighs are covered in mud. But I couldn't care less (except for my electronic devices in my bag because I was stupid enough to bring a bag that has no zip -_-).

Why is the rain nothing to us?

1. I see soldiers marching under rain, lining up to salute Mr LKY, in their Smart Four and with nothing over their heads. They didn't flinch a slightest bit.

2. Like everyone has said, because LKY gave his whole life for Singapore.


On a final note, I just wish to say - we have mourned enough over LKY's departure. We should celebrate his life, his contribution and his leadership.






Regards
Caroline Tan

Tuesday 10 March 2015

Resilience?

Yet another night of my disappointment.

Did I overestimate myself? Did I luck out? Am I getting dumber by the day?

I used to be filled with so much fighting spirit, so much positivity. Now I'm just getting by every other day feeling so bogged down by expectations and disappointments. I can't figure out what's wrong. Could it be just because I am so used to have things my way, so much so that I can't handle setbacks?

I really wish I could live simpler. Expect lesser. I always think that I can. But I can't. People say that life is about being happy. I am 100% convinced that that should be the way. But why don't I feel happy? Why don't I ever feel satisfied? Feel contented? Have I been looking things with a tunnel vision, turning a blind eye to so many other things there are to this life besides what I think my life is all about?

My life is now about sacrificing today for a better tomorrow that seems to only get further away from me every time I try to take a step closer.

Just how long more until I break?

Wednesday 14 January 2015

Taiwan Trip 2014: Taipei Part 3 - Jiu Fen (九分老街) / Pingxi / Beitou (北投) / Danshui (淡水) / Fishermen's Wharf (渔人码头) + Anniversary Surprise

My happy face before a day of battling with the crowd began


My day spent in Jiufen and Shifen was very close to becoming a nightmare. I knew that this place was going to be crazy crowded on weekends so I planned to visit on a Friday (02/01). And it turned out that 1st Jan - 4th Jan were all public holidays -_-

To get to Jiufen and Shifen, we had to take the TSR to Rui Fang, from where we'll change to Pingxi Line. But all I can say is that the TSR system was super confusing, like there were a few different types of tickets at different prices but they are all supposed to bring you to Rui Fang. And in fact, you can just buy your tickets to any random station and top up for fare later. We later deduced that the more expensive tickets are for direct trains that don't stop at so many stations in between, on the other hand, the cheapest ticket will take the longest to bring you to Rui Fang because the train stops at quite a number of stops in between.

So we were like 2 confused kittens. Kw just bought 2 tickets and we just got to the platform which we were ushered to and holy shit, THE STATION WAS SO DAMN CROWDED! It's like rush hour at Bishan / Serangoon / Dhoby Ghaut Stations. THE TRAIN WAS SO PACKED and it's a challenge to even get up the train.




After an hour, we finally got to Ruifang and the crowd waiting to take the Pingxi train was beyond scary. Instead of squeezing and taking the train which would've taken up to an hour to reach Jiufen, we got out and took a cab instead.

The cabs all charged around the same rates, I think the industry is quite regulated so there's no need to worry about getting scammed. I would also think it's better to book a cab for the whole day that covers places like Jiufen and Shifen and sending you back to Taipei, if you are travelling in a group. I really wanted to do that but it would be super expensive since it's just the 2 of us.

Up the hill on the cab 



Pleasantly surprised by how scenic it was!



So, there's really not much nice pictures taken from here on because Jiufen was INSANELY CROWDED AND I'M NOT EVEN JOKING.



People were STUCKED at the small narrow entrance into this street and it's so crowded that you can just lean against the crowd and people won't feel a thing, and you cannot possibly fall down.

It's so bad that after 10 minutes, you probably only took 8 steps.
It was literally a nightmare.

X, X Everywhere  - There is people, people everywhere
Yes, literally what I felt.



We were starving so we got to a noodles shop using all the strength we had and had our lunch there.

Not superb but it was life-saving. Super grateful that we could escape the crowd for a bit.

After lunch, we went next door for taro balls, a must-eat at Jiufen!




And then we scooted off this place of terror since it was impossible to properly enjoy exploring the place.

We then flagged a cab, hoping to get to Shifen Waterfall! But the traffic was SO BAD. We spent 2 hours on the cab and were still nowhere near. In the end, we got down the cab and walked to the waterfall cuz it was faster walking than to wait in the jam. Knowing that it's probably quite hard to get out of that place after that, we told the driver to wait for us at the entrance to the waterfall so he can send us to Pingxi station after we're done.

 But.........................





.......when we finally reached.............................................................



















............................we were told that the waterfall was already closed at 4.30pm -____________-
Super sian because I was looking forward to it so much! I think it's just me having no fate with waterfalls :(





We walked back to the cab instead of it waiting for us because it was still stucked in the jam and set off to Pingxi for sky lanterns! Was super excited when we saw the sky lanterns from afar on the cab!

We went to a random shop cuz we didn't know there were so many of them at Pingxi station itself and it was a lot nicer to do it at Pingxi station :/ but well, it's still the experience that counts!

Different colours represent different things and we chose the multi-coloured lantern so we can have the best of 4 worlds hehe









 May all our wishes come true~~




After releasing the sky lantern, all we wanted to do was to get the fuck out of these place, back to Taipei city which was a more hospitable place. So as can be seen, we didn't really accomplish much on our trip to Jiufen and Shifen.



But before we left, I really wanted to get some Taiwan sausage


And it was really good! Was craving for more after finishing


Then we watched people releasing sky lanterns while waiting for our train



Getting back was another unimaginable wrestle with the crowd. The crowd on the train on our way back was 2x worse than when we took the train to Ruifang. We barely had breathing space................ It was nothing but squeezy and everyone was basically leaning against each other. I was trying so hard not to fall onto the people sitting down in front of me. -_-


After an hour, we were finally back at Ruifang station.

The not-so-happy us waiting to transit cuz the train was lateeeeeeee by about 20 minutes
Thank god we got a seat on this train back to Taipei.



After another hour, we finally made it back to the dearly missed city. No words can describe the relief I felt after a day of wrestling with the crowd. Went to our 2nd home - Shilin Night Market (only because we visited it every night before walking back to our hotel) to grab more night snacks!


There was this basement food court lined up with many food stalls! 




Another random meesua cuz I couldn't find the Ah Zong Mian Xian @ Shilin Night Market. Ah Zong Mian Xian is truly unbeatable. 


 This looked really appetising so I finally decided to try it after walking past it so many times. But since Kw wasn't a fan of sea creatures including cuttlefish, I knew there was going to be some wastage. Turns out I only finished 50% of it. 



Interesting "flying milk"





That was the end of our 2nd last day in Taipei.

Decided to merge 2 days into one entry!





So on the very last day, we were finally going to do something I've been looking forward to for super long: HOT SPRING!!!!!!



But before that, time for a selfie to start off an exciting day!

My #ootd 
Weather was good enough for short skirt :D



So to enjoy Taipei's hot spring, you'll have to take the MRT to Beitou station (along the red line therefore super convenient for us!) and transit to Xinbeitou station which is one stop away!


We took a cab from the MRT station to Spring City Resort as our choice of hot spring destination! Cab fare was only 70NT but since it's up the hill, I don't think walking is an option.
Did some research before that there are a few options. There's a public hot spring area that only costs 40NT and another kind that's like a private room where they charge hourly rate. 

Since we had quite a bit of money left on the last day, we chose to go for a luxurious spa-style hot spring. It costs 800NT (about 43 SGD) and you are entitled to use all the spa facilities without a time limit. Shiokkkkk!






Basket with slippers, kimono, locker key and shower cap! 



We saw this area where people were inside taking a nap and we were thinking, "wtf come here and sleep on the floor?????" And then on closer look, it's a marble bath with hot spring underneath it. The marble floor was really warm and quite comfy so we spent quite awhile there lol





You'll get a little light-headed if you soak yourself in the pool for too long, especially so if the pool is hot. We go dizzy after awhile so we had to get out every 15 minutes and cool ourselves down. The hottest pool there was 45dc and I couldn't spend more than 5 minutes inside.




After pampering ourselves, we headed to Danshui. There is a lot more to eat and see at Danshui than I expected!






 Butter pancake

Quail eggs 




Super happy to get to eat this super tall ice cream at danshui!!!! There's so many of them along the street BUT watch them serve before buying because there are some with really short and skinny ice creams and the lousy waffle cone (MacDonalds' kind). I recce for awhile before deciding on this stall cuz they had the good waffle cones! :D


Super fluffy 鸡蛋糕 



There wasn't anything fanciful but just staying there watching the sun setting was so beautiful.




Then we bought tickets to Fishermen's Wharf!


Perfect view of our 2nd sunset in Taiwan! 


Lovers' Bridge 


Got this girl who looked damn pro to take this for us. How?? 

Lover's Bridge at night




And then we set off to Taipei Station to get sun cakes and pineapple tarts from 李仪饼店. 
Their pineapple tarts were FABULOUS! I bought 2 boxes and couldn't get enough of it!



We went back to drop everything off at our hotel before going to Shilin Night Market (again) for dinner! Hehe.


And I haven't mentioned that the last day of our trip in Taiwan happens to be Kw and my 5th anniversary together. So when we got back to the hotel.................






 I was greeted by a bed of romantic decorations and a huge bouquet of my favourite champagne roses!

Don't really have an idea how he's able to do this without me knowing at all and also, he's already paid for all this!!! 



 Ok looking a bit cui after being out the whole day so please don't mind


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And our final night in Shilin... 














Yeap so that was the end of our food adventure in Taiwan.












Ending this post...
with the love of my life. :)
To many more trips to come! Luv you! -3-